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Thursday, May 17, 2007

back to work today. delighted man! i miss my work!! lols. worried laa.. one day mc means one day's work compiled to the next day. well.. i just came back from lunch. had only coffee again todae. no appetite siah. didnt even eat my breakfast. feeling so moody todae. heavy hearted. blue. melachony. depressed. bla bla bla... name all the adjectives relevant to being sad n moody, i got them all.

i couldn't get rid of the rock on my heart. hais. WHY?!! Why must you place a thorn in my heart? Must the picture turn ugly? Are you realli feeling good to see things nasty? but I DON'T!!! NOT AT ALL!! in fact..i feel so heavy hearted. i feel so sinful. i hurt you. i caused ur tears. i caused miseries. i caused the heartpains of yours. i only bring unhappiness to you. Why?!! why am i so sinful?!! i'm truly sorry. but please. i don't wish for all these to happen too. i'm weird alrites. i harbour no more feelings. perhaps u were right, we shudnt be together right from the start. then i wouldnt have a chance to hurt you. i feel so miserable. cos i actualli hurt someone. i'm sorry. but i reali dowan to think about r/s now. and i realli dun feel heartbeats anymore. my heart has died. perhaps, i'm hiding or avoiding like what u said. but, at this moment, i realli dowan to think about it. i dowan to fall in love intentionally. i dowan to be tied down. i'm very comfortable and satisfied wib my life now. i hope we can stay as good friends. i hope being apart doesn't mean that we couldn't be friends. in fact, ur understanding of me means we could even be best of friends. even though, we couldnt be a couple, i'm still here to listen to ur woes and ur happiness. i promise. i'm really sorry i couldnt give you the love. but i promise, i would nv turn my back to you. you are my good friend. a fact that won't change. no matter whom my future bf is, i would still be ur bestie openly. please stay happy and work hard. i want to see ur happiness. i dowan to be the cause of ur hurts anymore. Put the past behind. Look forward, my friend!!

i'm really sorry, boy.
i really hope our friendship stays the same always.


his wifey; her mummy <3
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